To Eternity

My days were all depressing
With a gloomy fall

My days were all blank
With painful breaths

My days were all empty of life
With a blur sign of hope

I was about to die
But..
There remained no reason
To survive

I was about to smile
But..
There remained no way
To hide

And now..

As I want to write this poem
My tears fall
One by one

As I want to write my beloved
My tears fall
Nonstop....

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Here is my story:

There was this weakened soul
Flowing in a floating village
You may call it Tao
Or.. I don't know..

It was a pure soul before
With a colorful ribbon
Tied with her hair
With a violet butterfly
On her little finger
With a white innocence
In her smiling sight

But as you may know
Lost poisoned blowings
Can travel here or there
And touch you in a tricky way
While you may not being noticed
Untill you find the wound feeling burned

As she felt that burning wound too
She noticed her ribbon was torn
Her violet butterfly was poisoned too

She felt lonely then
She felt a painful heaviness
She could not understand
She did not know the reason

So quietly..
She started to cry
Her tears were falling as blossoms
Being spread everywhere
By the wind of time

Every morning
She went weaker
She went lost

And the story is still going on:

For one day..
That weakened soul finally fell
Beside a windy road
Where other flowing souls
Were going on their own way
But she was not being noticed
She was all alone there

Looking at the sky
Her rolling tears still
Were turning into blossoms
laying beside her hairs

And a moment..

Unconsciously she started to smile
As slowly she felt the sun
Sparkling warmly on her eyes

It was a shining soul
Sitting by her side
Holding her face
With his kind beautiful hand
With a glow in his charming eyes
With long soft hairs of him
Fluttering gently by the wind

Then he kindly tied her hair
A beauteous colorful ribbon
And slowly he started whispering
To her little violet butterfly
Magic songs she never knew before
And her butterfly ..came alive

Blossoms were spreading around
Cheering from her eyes
When she heard his smooth voice
Embracing her shivering frame
Saying gently to her..

" ..Jsi v bezpečí
má milovaná.. "

Today it may rain
I could guess
So I left my umbrella
At home
On purpose

I did not put on my boots
I think for my mood
They really don't suit

With a red frail jacket
My old pale jeans
My white shawl round my neck
I put on my givenchy perfume

Grabbing my backpack
After I tied up
My ripped navy all-star shoes
I happily hit the road

Nothing I put on is new
But ..this pure flame
Rising like the rays of sun
Through my beating heart
And the warmth of its glow
As it's slowly beginning to grow

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Awh I see..
It is starting to fall..

I want to closely feel
Every little drop of rain
On my hands
On my face

Feel happy
Feel excited
Feel crazy
Feel wet

And my pains
They will be lying
Beneath this joy
Falling as these tiny drops
Rolling down from my eyes

Just like how glamorous
This divine holy gift
Is blessing the earth
Is touching my smiling lips

And I save my breath
Save my strength
My courage
My hopes
My fears
My faith

And I sing it loud
Please hear me..
My Hope
My Heaven
My Glance of pain

Beyond the borders
Beyond the times

Where nebulas sail
Where stars rebirth

A melody
With no lyrics
With no beginning
With no end

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I Whisper into your ears..

"Miluji Tě"

Today..
I suddenly opened my eyes
My breaths were fast
My body was stiff
With some blurred panics

Then I looked around
It was day light
It was sun rays
And the sounds by little birds

I slowly felt relieved
Then trembling I exhaled
Smiling.. I somehow felt happy
I could see the dawn again

But..
Suddenly..

I felt so alone..
Like always
Like before

Like when I was a little kid
Looking through the window
Watching the clouds
The smooth way
They were moving around
Changing into different shapes
Without me being noticed
And I was innocently
Enjoying them all in all
With only me along..

It still is..

Sun rising
Glassy window
Clouds reshaping

And..

me..
all alone..

Under the shiny sky..
Where I can clearly see
Milky way galaxy..

I light this candle
I watch it burning..
Me here only..

I listen to this song..
..and I start to pray
Till I fall asleep..
While my flame here
Goes on quietly...

Awh
It should be morning
But
Why do I feel so light..?
And
What is this smooth thing
I feel at my behind..?

Oh no
I can not believe
These are ..my ..wings?

Awh ..the lights
Sun is rising
I'm so happy
I'm crying

I never felt
This way before..

My wings kinda weak
But it's alright
It's just a begining!

I will try
And I will try
And if I fell
Or get some lesions

I'll be okay
I can calm down
Wait for the sun
Arise again
With the next dawn

For I know
Finally
I will fly
I will really fly

I will soar
Within naughty clouds
Sing my songs
Freely and loud
All above the skies

My little wings
And I
We quietly
Keep it
A secret of ours

And one beautiful day
We spread our love
All above the skies
While happily
Together we will Fly

My
Dear
Sweet
Little
Wings..

I wish
I could
Reach my hands
To a star
That is
So far

The star
Which belongs
With someone

Someone
Who's mystery
Who's kind

Who sings
Beautiful songs..

Who drinks
Special matcha
In a garden
With blossoms
All around..

I look at the sky
I hardly smile
And then
I make a wish..

I close my eyes

And..
A tear drops..

My beloved
Your hands
Frozen

Oh dear
Frozen

Your eyes
Senseless
Gazed

I'm scared
It is not real
It could not
It should not

Please
Your heart
Should persist
It must beat

Just hang on
Hang on with me

Oh dear
Take my blood
Take my life
My eveything

Anything
I do pay
No matter
What price

But please
My beloved
Please
I beg you
Please

Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay alive
Don't leave me
Please
Please
Just don't..
Don't..

Why is this?
This endless pain..

My heart
Please
Do not cry
Do not sigh

Didn't I tell you..?
Life won't wait
It can be unfair
Not your fault
I know
For you can just
Do only love

Where is that?
That Immortal freedom..

My heart
Please
Do not give in
Do not die
Not in my hands
Not right now

For if you die..

How will I sense
The warmth of that touch
With a beautiful dawn..?

How will I breath
The smell of blossoms
In a beautiful spring night..?

If you die
No longer
I can live on
I will die beside you
My shivering heart

I will not cry
I will..
Simply die..

I wish to ask
Only
For a tiny place
Somewhere
With your heart..

not too much
I promise..

Just a little place
You keep it safe
Only to me
Only for me..

If you came pure at my presence
and if I could shake hands with you
and let you step into my world
touching my soul
please be careful being here

as it's dark here in my shivering loneliness
as it's trembling with my sheding tears
as it's as cold as frightened me
as I'm just trying gathering pieces of my heart
which may be still alive ...or somehow still warm

so please
be careful with my beating lasts
be cautious ...be gentle

for if you step on them
my heart may suffer
and before you could turn back
my heart may die...