Today..
I suddenly opened my eyes
My breaths were fast
My body was stiff
With some blurred panics

Then I looked around
It was day light
It was sun rays
And the sounds by little birds

I slowly felt relieved
Then trembling I exhaled
Smiling.. I somehow felt happy
I could see the dawn again

But..
Suddenly..

I felt so alone..
Like always
Like before

Like when I was a little kid
Looking through the window
Watching the clouds
The smooth way
They were moving around
Changing into different shapes
Without me being noticed
And I was innocently
Enjoying them all in all
With only me along..

It still is..

Sun rising
Glassy window
Clouds reshaping

And..

me..
all alone..