My days were all blank
With painful breaths

My days were all empty of life
With a blur sign of hope

I was about to die
But..
There remained no reason
To survive

I was about to smile
But..
There remained no way
To hide

And now..

As I want to write this poem
My tears fall
One by one

As I want to write my beloved
My tears fall
Nonstop....

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Here is my story:

There was this weakened soul
Flowing in a floating village
You may call it Tao
Or.. I don't know..

It was a pure soul before
With a colorful ribbon
Tied with her hair
With a violet butterfly
On her little finger
With a white innocence
In her smiling sight

But as you may know
Lost poisoned blowings
Can travel here or there
And touch you in a tricky way
While you may not being noticed
Untill you find the wound feeling burned

As she felt that burning wound too
She noticed her ribbon was torn
Her violet butterfly was poisoned too

She felt lonely then
She felt a painful heaviness
She could not understand
She did not know the reason

So quietly..
She started to cry
Her tears were falling as blossoms
Being spread everywhere
By the wind of time

Every morning
She went weaker
She went lost

And the story is still going on:

For one day..
That weakened soul finally fell
Beside a windy road
Where other flowing souls
Were going on their own way
But she was not being noticed
She was all alone there

Looking at the sky
Her rolling tears still
Were turning into blossoms
laying beside her hairs

And a moment..

Unconsciously she started to smile
As slowly she felt the sun
Sparkling warmly on her eyes

It was a shining soul
Sitting by her side
Holding her face
With his kind beautiful hand
With a glow in his charming eyes
With long soft hairs of him
Fluttering gently by the wind

Then he kindly tied her hair
A beauteous colorful ribbon
And slowly he started whispering
To her little violet butterfly
Magic songs she never knew before
And her butterfly ..came alive

Blossoms were spreading around
Cheering from her eyes
When she heard his smooth voice
Embracing her shivering frame
Saying gently to her..

" ..Jsi v bezpečí
má milovaná.. "

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I did not put on my boots
I think for my mood
They really don't suit

With a red frail jacket
My old pale jeans
My white shawl round my neck
I put on my givenchy perfume

Grabbing my backpack
After I tied up
My ripped navy all-star shoes
I happily hit the road

Nothing I put on is new
But ..this pure flame
Rising like the rays of sun
Through my beating heart
And the warmth of its glow
As it's slowly beginning to grow

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Awh I see..
It is starting to fall..

I want to closely feel
Every little drop of rain
On my hands
On my face

Feel happy
Feel excited
Feel crazy
Feel wet

And my pains
They will be lying
Beneath this joy
Falling as these tiny drops
Rolling down from my eyes

Just like how glamorous
This divine holy gift
Is blessing the earth
Is touching my smiling lips

And I save my breath
Save my strength
My courage
My hopes
My fears
My faith

And I sing it loud
Please hear me..
My Hope
My Heaven
My Glance of pain

Beyond the borders
Beyond the times

Where nebulas sail
Where stars rebirth

A melody
With no lyrics
With no beginning
With no end

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I Whisper into your ears..

"Miluji Tě"

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Then I looked around
It was day light
It was sun rays
And the sounds by little birds

I slowly felt relieved
Then trembling I exhaled
Smiling.. I somehow felt happy
I could see the dawn again

But..
Suddenly..

I felt so alone..
Like always
Like before

Like when I was a little kid
Looking through the window
Watching the clouds
The smooth way
They were moving around
Changing into different shapes
Without me being noticed
And I was innocently
Enjoying them all in all
With only me along..

It still is..

Sun rising
Glassy window
Clouds reshaping

And..

me..
all alone..

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I light this candle
I watch it burning..
Me here only..

I listen to this song..
..and I start to pray
Till I fall asleep..
While my flame here
Goes on quietly...

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Oh no
I can not believe
These are ..my ..wings?

Awh ..the lights
Sun is rising
I'm so happy
I'm crying

I never felt
This way before..

My wings kinda weak
But it's alright
It's just a begining!

I will try
And I will try
And if I fell
Or get some lesions

I'll be okay
I can calm down
Wait for the sun
Arise again
With the next dawn

For I know
Finally
I will fly
I will really fly

I will soar
Within naughty clouds
Sing my songs
Freely and loud
All above the skies

My little wings
And I
We quietly
Keep it
A secret of ours

And one beautiful day
We spread our love
All above the skies
While happily
Together we will Fly

My
Dear
Sweet
Little
Wings..

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The star
Which belongs
With someone

Someone
Who's mystery
Who's kind

Who sings
Beautiful songs..

Who drinks
Special matcha
In a garden
With blossoms
All around..

I look at the sky
I hardly smile
And then
I make a wish..

I close my eyes

And..
A tear drops..

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Oh dear
Frozen

Your eyes
Senseless
Gazed

I'm scared
It is not real
It could not
It should not

Please
Your heart
Should persist
It must beat

Just hang on
Hang on with me

Oh dear
Take my blood
Take my life
My eveything

Anything
I do pay
No matter
What price

But please
My beloved
Please
I beg you
Please

Stay with me
Stay with me
Stay alive
Don't leave me
Please
Please
Just don't..
Don't..

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My heart
Please
Do not cry
Do not sigh

Didn't I tell you..?
Life won't wait
It can be unfair
Not your fault
I know
For you can just
Do only love

Where is that?
That Immortal freedom..

My heart
Please
Do not give in
Do not die
Not in my hands
Not right now

For if you die..

How will I sense
The warmth of that touch
With a beautiful dawn..?

How will I breath
The smell of blossoms
In a beautiful spring night..?

If you die
No longer
I can live on
I will die beside you
My shivering heart

I will not cry
I will..
Simply die..

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not too much
I promise..

Just a little place
You keep it safe
Only to me
Only for me..

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as it's dark here in my shivering loneliness
as it's trembling with my sheding tears
as it's as cold as frightened me
as I'm just trying gathering pieces of my heart
which may be still alive ...or somehow still warm

so please
be careful with my beating lasts
be cautious ...be gentle

for if you step on them
my heart may suffer
and before you could turn back
my heart may die...

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I like to listen to your music
Everyday
"Imagine"

And I like to sing your song
Everytime
That I feel tired
Or when I want to relax
Or maybe when I like to cry
"Imagine"

But dear John Lennon,

when I step out of my dreams
I get shocked by my before
My hands start to shiver
And I start to panic
My chest begin to ache
And I feel so scared
That it makes my tears fall

Because I live in this world
That I can't run away from
That I can't fight back
And I have to accept it as it is
But in the end I feel like "How?!"

Because I live in this world
Where I see a child dying of hunger
And a child who never felt the way to be loved
Where I see people dying for no reason in a war
And crimes happen because of poverty and lack of love
Even though that I still see those people
Who are happy despite of being Indigent
And who to be indfferent to see it all?
Who to not get hurt, to not cry?

Becasue I live in this world
Where I should worry about my future
About how I will be employed
Or how I will be fired after all
For I need money to a part of this life
No matter if I deny it or not

Because I live in this world
Where I need to be accepted
With titles like:
"Honorable, Capable, Suitable, Qualified"
Or documents that are treasures
Talking about my abilities
That can make the leaders satisfy
In order to be able to survive

Because I live in this world
Where I like its skies
Where I like its nature and its beings
Where I like to sit and watch the sun setting
In a peaceful shore with my dear ones
Where I like to think about only grace and love

So I listen to your music
Everyday
"Imagine"

And I sing your song
Everytime
That I feel tired
Or when I want to relax
Or maybe when I like to cry
"Imagine"

And one day
It may come true
Just the way you wished
Just the way you wanted to
"Imagine"

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"Impossible"
I was yearning for my brushes
For my dearest only color
My Black Ink
But I was falling
I was crawling

Sneers I could hear
They were yelling at me
"You're an art thief"
They threw chains around my throat
Could I ever breath again..?

They were shouting at me
"You,
The art thief,
You shall pay,
With your blood
No mercy from now on"

I was yearning for my brushes
For my Black Ink
For colors I've never owned
For imaginaries I wished to borrow
From the scenes on the road

"Impossible"
I only needed some colors I've never owned
I only needed some frames
To put my name beneath the wood
Things I've never had
Things I've never robbed
I only admired what in my pocket
That I've never had
That I've never robbed

But who to believe
They didn't hear a single tear
They made me pay with my life
A ruined corpse on the ground

The blackness of the sin
The redness of the blood
They painted all the divisions on the wall
With my broken brushes
With my dearest Black Ink
With my Blood
With my Blood

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I've got used to this world
This world full of judgements
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
They give you rates
They find you titles
Give you ranks
And put a mark on your face

Then the moment you catch their hands
They wear a mask
And hide their true identity
Even though they can hardly hide
That fear in their eyes
But "Why" you may ask..?

Because they're afraid
Afraid of being judged
Afraid of being judged

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I'm sitting here alone
By the fire
With not knowing the reason
Why she would never come
And I still love her

With tonight
Everything is prepared
Chocolate
Wine
And Red Roses

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With a shadow beside
Someone
Who was shaded in the dark
I was talking to
Not a clear face
But the eyes
Those glowing eyes
They were sharp and kind
Gazing at me all the time
Yes it was so dark
But so peaceful and calm
Under the sky

And I sang some little songs
And he kept listening
All the time
So patient
So warm
He gazed and listened
All the time
Even when I was silent
Silent and somehow shy
But he gave smiles in return

We lied on the ground
Watching the stars
We also made some little wishes
Under the sky

I could see the shape of his body
In the shadows of the gleam lights
The way he was watching the sky
With those mysterious eyes
And his vague smile

I was starred at him
Like how you daze at a glow
Like I was dreaming
A beautiful scene

While I was dreaming
I felt a cherrish breeze
And also some warm breaths
I could see the stream in the dark
It was so close yet so calm
While I had got too excited inside

And a moment
I felt a soft heat
On my lips
And a flow of warm thrills
It had continued
As his hands
Approached my face

My body was so warm
Yet protected and safe
And my eyes
They were so excited
Yet filled with tears
Starring right through his eyes
His glorious eyes
Smiling at me
With a flaming shine

And then I was embraced
With his kindness
His protecting arms
His calm and steady side

And shadows disapeared
Little by little
And I could see his face
More clear
And more pure
Without no fear

And it was him
Just as I knew
Graceful and kind
Under the sky

Under the sky

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It's fall again
Do you see the leaves?
Do you see them falling?
The wind blows tough
And the thunder
It's raining

Ah it's cold
Where are you?
I'm calling you
Can't you hear?

My hands
They are reached for you
Can't you see?
Where are you?

Ah my heart
It's weak
It's thirsty
To be embraced
To be loved
Can't you see?

Look through my eyes
Have they ever lied to you?
Can't you just not hide?
Can't you just not deny?

Please understand
It's you
And only you
Who is needed
Who is called
All the way
Through the pain
Through the joy
For your side
For your care

But tell me
Just tell me
Where are you?
Where are you?

Ah it's cold

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Little blossoms
They look around
At the sun
With the clouds
In the sky
They look around
At the ground
To the grasses
Hard stones
Or when it rains
Just with the smile
On their face

Little blossoms
They know about time
About life that passes by
So they laugh
They love
From the bottom of their little heart

They know there's no time to hurt
Or to greediness, to hate
No time to make fun of others
Or to laugh at them
Or to make them live in pain

Little blossoms
It's only
Love
Peace
And faith
what they've tried
Befor they fly away
And leave with the next dawn

This is the reason
They're beautiful
They're innocent
They're eternal in your mind
They make you peaceful and happy
And you like to watch them
Time by time

Yes, they are beautiful
They are beautiful
Little blossoms

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You can not tame me
You can not fool me
I can hit you hard

But if your kindness
If your spirit
Touches mine
If I found
That great worth in your heart

Then you overcome
You can depend on me
You can trust
You can even make me run
Run along with you
Anywhere
Anytime
Our spirit
Leads us to the beautiful sky
Where no one can reach us

This is the spirit of a horse

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It's hard not to cry
When all I have is silence
It's painful
And I wanna scream
I wanna shout my pains
But silence
All I have is silence

Pains make you understand more
It is true
I can tell
But God
Understanding is painful
What if I don't want to

My hands
My hands are cold
And I'm shivering
I'm shivering all alone
Oh God take me to your kindness
Take me to your warmth
You didn't leave my side
You didn't
Did you?

My mind is empty
But my heart
My heart is full
Full of hurt
Oh I hear it crying
Crying so sad
My fragile heart
Is broken
Is alone
Is scared
And my soul
My soul is tired
And my body
Get so sad
Get so weak
To carry my exhausted soul
Oh God

The truth
It says life can be cruel
I can tell
The truth
It says life can be kind
I can tell
But It's so hard to cope
In this gloomy night
And all alone

Oh God
You who paint love
Through our hearts
You who make them fly
Like butterflies

Please
Let them fly together
Fly together
Don't make them apart
Don't make them apart

Oh God
Oh God
You're the Truth,
All above

You're the Light,
Make everything visible
Make everything alive

You're my only Hope
My only Faith
Take my hands
My hands
Oh they're so cold

Oh God
You are wonderful
So beautiful
So soft
Take my hands
Take my hands
They're so cold
So cold
Oh God

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You make me believe
To have hope...

Now I wanna say
I believe you...

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Then even the wind can't chase us..

And the sun will adore what we have
As it burns immortality..

There's no space and no time between us..

Just trust and jump
You know that you will fly...

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